Spiritual

I remember the first time I had a “Psychic moment” it was when I was at school, and my Friend was talking about a guy she liked outside of school. I then managed to describe in detail what he was wearing and what he looked like. Afterwards she asked me “How did you do that?!” I said I didn’t know, because I didn’t. It wasn’t until I was 26 years old that a similar situation occurred. I was at a friend’s house and we started talking about Spiritual things ( a very known habit of mine !) and I mentioned I could sometimes pick up on energy . My friend’s eyes lit up with excitement and she then asked me if I could sense anything around her. All evening I had sensed a grandfather energy around her ( before this I had never sensed anything like this before .) it was a feeling I couldn’t shake all evening and I was worried if what I was sensing was wrong about her ! I apologised in advance to her if I got it wrong and I told her about the grandfather energy I sensed around her…there was a moment of silence, she stared at me in shock. “My grandfather has just passed away 2 months ago!”

After that incident I didn’t have another one like it until three years after, when I was in a car and a family Friend was driving and she was talking to us about a necklace she had to go and get rid of, and I suddenly had a very strong “obligation” to tell her what the necklace looked like in exact detail, “She’s got the gift!” She said to my relative.

From a young age I’ve known that I was a bit different from everyone else. Apart from the fact that I grew up in a haunted house and witnessed paranormal activity almost every day ( Footsteps, things moving on their own, shadow figures, night paralysis, mocking spirits etc. ) I could also sense peoples spiritual energy. At the time I was unaware that’s what I was picking up, I just put it down to having social anxiety, but as I grew up the feeling got more intense. I remember one time I was travelling up to Lincolnshire and I had to change at London Victoria to Kings Cross. The closer we got to the outskirts of London the whole energy around me shifted. It felt like the residual energy from London’s history was radiating immensely from the old buildings and tunnels outside of the train, making it known to me very strongly. My fingertips and hands started to tingle ( which is something that happens to me when I pick up on allot of energy) the train pulled in to the station, I was concentrating on my breathing and had my phone in hand ready to call my mum ( as she knew how anxious I got whenever I travelled alone . So I said I would ring her when I arrived in London.)

Getting off the train I was suddenly aware that the energy I had been feeling had almost gone! However as I started to walk up to the main bit of the station a “stampede of people” started popping up. My mind became “fuzzy” and I was “hit” with this erratic wave of energy from all angles. It felt like a million different people were talking to me at the same time. I couldn’t control my breathing , I could feel my throat tighten, I frantically scanned the station for a quiet corner to go to . “I must look so stupid!” I thought to myself, I was feeling clammy and hot. All I had to do was ring home and then I would calm down…but I was shaking so much I couldn’t even dial or use my phone! Eventually I managed to calm down enough to ring home and I managed to proceed with my journey, but that panic attack really took allot out of me!

I became a hermit a bit for two years as my anxiety was so bad when I went out into town. I didn’t know it then but my anxiety was caused by picking up on spiritual energy. But I gradually started to work through it, and with the support of some of my friends at the time I was able to go out more. I have always felt conflicted about my interest in the Spiritual realm because I was confirmed a Christian and the Bible basically says not to dabble in such matters. God knows (quite literally) how many times I’ve prayed and asked for his guidance concerning my “Spiritual abilities” which at the time were just picking up on spiritual energy from people, places, ghosts. There are countless testimonies of people who have had Life after death experiences, who have healed people. God even allowed some people to have “Visions in their dreams” about what was going to happen in the future. I myself have had Visions in dreams about the future which came true, (I don’t have that ability anymore though.)

“If God didn’t want me to sense spiritual energy then why hasn’t he taken that ability away from me?”

“Dear Lord if you don’t want me to have these abilities then please takes them away from me. But if I’m meant to help people in this way, then please help me help them.”

These are some of the prayers and thoughts I’ve had on almost daily basis. About two years ago, I joined this Facebook group where people post a photo of themselves to see if anyone can pick up anything from it. I thought I would give it a try. Scrolling down the endless photos of strangers there was one that caught my eye, I suppose looking back on that moment that was the first ever “reading” I did. I started to get flooded with images and scenes in my head relating to the woman. I told her that I sensed a brother energy in the seat next to her, but I was getting the feeling there had been an altercation with him and two other guys, in a neighbourhood at night-time somewhere in America (I didn’t know the woman was American I just had a strong feeling that the scene had taken place in America. But I also saw a stabbing) the woman messaged me back confirming what I had seen. Her brother had been in an argument with two other men in a neighbourhood at night-time in America, and he had been killed by being stabbed. I was shocked that I had managed to get that right! From then on I gave a few other people a reading and I was accurate with them too. But being new to doing that sort of thing, I didn’t know how to “Un-tune myself from getting images etc.” and I eventually became quite lightheaded so I stopped doing it.

It wasn’t until November 2022 that I started doing readings again, but this time I was more knowledgeable about what to do. I didn’t really do much research into doing readings professionally I just let my intuition guide me , which seemed to work because before I knew it I had five star reviews and people were recommending me to their friends and family. Every time before a reading I pray to God again asking him if this is what I’m meant to be doing then please just give me a sign! You know how confused I am about this Lord, why isn’t this ability going away if you don’t want me to have it! “And when I finish speaking with The Lord literally an hour later I have more people messaging me asking for a reading.

I suppose I’m what people class as “ Clairvoyant “ but like I say to my customers everyone works in different ways . I think the biggest misconception about being spiritually gifted is that others think you see dead people all the time. Some mediums may see that sort of thing but I don’t (Thankfully!) how I work is through photos, so that’s why I only do online readings through text, Wattsapp, messenger. Plus I have a son so video calls would just keep getting interrupted! So a person would send me a photo and I go from there.

I see everything in my mind’s eye, never actually in-front of me. I always say I can contact passed loved ones if they wish but in actual fact it’s them that make the first move. Unlike most people in this industry I don’t do Wicca or Candle-work, Scrying, Writing down scribbles etc. I just ask for help from God and my guardian Angel (The Bible says we all have a guardian Angel that watches over us, so instead of using so called “Spirit guides” that I personally don’t trust because they could be a bad spirit pretending to be a good spirit, I feel more comfortable with praying to my guardian Angel and The Lord.) I didn’t realise at first how much energy doing readings takes from you. My readings are a mixture of the traditional sense combined with Counselling and motivation. Sometimes people just need a person to talk to and so I just do that, sometimes I don’t even have to “Tune in “at all.

However recently over the past couple of weeks I’ve started to tune in to people on the street or in the shops! For example a person could be waiting at the checkout and I’m instantly drawn to them because there is this immense ( and it’s by far one of the most strongest spiritual things I’ve felt . The best way I can describe it is a gravitational pull ) around that person, which tells me little things about them, such as they have a grandfather whose died but around them he was in the World War…etc. . I have to look the other way at times because it’s to strong and I don’t want to tune in.

I hope this article has helped those of you who are conflicted about your spiritual abilities, and just know that if you’re feeling the way I’ve explained in this article then please pray for Guidance from God as he will make things clear to you in time. Always trust your gut feeling too. I’d be more than happy to discuss any questions you have.